The idea of regaining, not my weight, not my youth, but MY HEALTH. The thought of dying is not terribly threatening but the thought of LIVING a long time in poor health and pain really doesn't thrill me. It is why skydiving doesn't scare me because I might die, it scares me because something MIGHT go really wrong and I might NOT die but live in pain and misery for a LONG LONG TIME. I now know that a skydiving accident is NOT the worst thing that could happen - I could just eat myself into poorer and poorer health and pain. How sad, not to even get the excitement of the jump.