Bearing with a loss is so hard especially if you were so close and worked with eachother everyday. My husband went through the same situation. It is hard because you learned to count on that person being there everyday. First of all, give yourself some time to grief and grab a different prospective while taking care of you!. Secondly, everyone is looking at you because they know your partner is gone and you feel alone. They don't know what to say or how to approach you, so their looks will have to do for now. You will get through this, it will be painful and sad, but you can do it. Remember your great friends words to you. They are not gone they are in your heart and soul. What would she say right now. How would she get you to take those first few steps. You admired her, so now it is up to you to honor that love and admiration to go forward with your life and your business/personal goals. She will remain in your heart forever and the time you had was precious, so concentrate on that and she will get you through your transisition now! Please do not forget what I said give yourself the time you need to grief and take care of yourself. Your friend would want you to do that first, then procceed forward with your life, because life can be a wonderful blessed thing if you take the right approach.