This is my first day here, and I want to get to where I was 10 years ago. I didn't start out the decade badly at all. I weighed 125 and although I could have been fitter, I wasn't too bad. The last ten years have been hard on me, and I'm really ashamed of myself. I've lost all motivation to care about myself at all. I found Spark looking for free diet plans (every site I found wanted to charge me or sell me a book) and I'm so glad I did! I'll have to wait until June 1 to start fully (long story...living situation is crazy right now), but I'm determined to be at my goal weight by 2013 and back to caring about how I look and feel.