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3/19/12 9:06 P

@MAUREENIE1 yes it does help alot thank you, that way if i did mess up once a week i will feel better about my over all intake, ill make sure ill use that in the future, thanks :)

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3/19/12 7:33 P

Hello Gulnar! I read your spark page and you have done so well. Congratulations on your weight loss! One of the things that I do when I have overindulged for one day is....I still track it. I don't get too worried about being perfect every day. At the end of the week, I look at my totals of calories, proteins, fats and carbs for the week. I add them all up and divide the number by 7. If my average is still within my allowances, I feel pretty good. Hope this helps!

Edited by: MAUREENIE1 at: 3/19/2012 (19:36)

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3/19/12 5:32 P

thanks guys your support really helps, im doing the best i can for today and with a positive outlook in the world than yesterday :)

Hubby told me we have a meeting with the lawyer on friday to give him the last paper's, i was so happy i started crying, was also crying cause my body was stuck between 226.2 and 228.4 for the past week and today it was 224

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3/19/12 5:28 P

We all have ups and downs. Take it day by day or hour by hour if you need to. Changing the past behaviors takes time and a lot of practice. Celebrate the good choices and move on. Good luck.

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3/19/12 11:02 A

GHOWARD25,

You have absolutely nothing to be ashamed of ! Spark People has never been about deprivation. It's all about moderation and portion control. And while you may have not been too mindful yesterday, try to be more mindful today. There is absolutely no reason you can't have a hoagie or slices of pizza, once in a while. As long as you don't eat like this every single day, once in a blue moon is fine. I can't imagine living a life where I wasn't allowed to eat something because I was worried I'd gain weight. that's not healthy.

What do I recommend ? In future, how about splitting a hoagie with the hubby ? That way you still get to enjoy the hoagie without all the extra calories. Pair it with a big leafy green salad and you're all set. The next time you'd like to have pizza, ditto, pair that slice with a big leafy green salad to get those servings of fresh veggies in.

Pizza, a hoagie, beer, brownie, etc... CAN all be a part of a healthy lifestyle as long as you are mindful of the portion.

So, don't beat yourself up, today is a new day. For the rest of the week, you eat more mindfully. Don't eat less ! Don't starve yourself to compensate. That just implies you did something wrong and deserve to be punished. Do your best to eat as healthfully as possible and everything really will be just fine. no worries.

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3/19/12 3:29 A

@EKSAML thanks, im just really not proud of what i have done by letting my emotions get the best of me twice X_X, 1st food ordering, 2nd the throwing up

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3/19/12 3:23 A

I'm sorry things are so tough for you at the moment. We all have slip ups but it sounds like you are on the right track looking forward to tomorrow - it's a new day and a new start.

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3/19/12 3:13 A

Today i ate a hoagie and 2 slices of pizza from papa johns.. half an hour late i felt really terrible... i used a part of my body for the worse... since i was a teenager i used to throw up a lot could never keep anything down, which is why i started not eating much so my gag reflex wont hurt me i used to go to the bathroom and cant control it, however.. now i can after years of dealing with it.. i usually hold it back every single day but there are things that trigger it that wont help me stop it, like nasty food jokes or stories.. and also my emotions, i was so depressed that i went to the bathroom and i stopped controlling it, i let it all out..

The reason i started eating those today is that i live in the US with my hubby he's from here im not, we were trying to get me SS for over 3 years now and still no luck, now we have a lawyer and my hubby cant give him the last papers since he's working hard cause of an outage at work.. my teeth hurt and im not on my hubby's insurance since i don't have an SS that upset me that i ordered out and ate those thing, i got so upset that my body rejected it.

Im a bit better now and looking forward for tomorrow, and trying not to repeat today, i told my sis what happened she suggested i should post it in here..