I went through a traumatizing early, young, abusive marriage about 30 years ago. In therapy, I was diagnosed as being depressed. It was a pastor from a church and counseling at my university (free for students) along with some discipline to be active and involved with new people in my college community, and reading the bible that helped me get through that incredibly difficult period of my life. I was single mother going to college, working, and was depressed. It was awful.
But with caring help from professionals, I eventually pulled through and could not them imagine the peace and happiness I live with now. I have met all of my dreams and have created more.
Run, don't walk to a professional therapist and get help you need. Suggest you start by calling 1-800-New-Life for guidance as to how to find appropriate help. New Life Ministries are dedicated to connecting people to the right people to help them. Also, Focus on the Family at 1-800- A FAMILY also help people on the phone and to get help they need.
The longer you wait to get the professional therapy, the longer you remain miserable in the difficult situation. A great life is out there for you. Go find it with some guided help.
Counseling takes courage, committment, and character. You have begun to reach out for help through your post below. Continue to find the help you need.
Part of being healthy is knowing to ask for help when you need it. You already are on your way by having started here. Now, we are pointing you to get help in your local community. It is there. Start calling and get on a path toward emotional peace and wholeness.
By the way, exercise is part of being healthy in every way. The body and mind are connected. Get and keep moving. It helps you cope with stress in your life.
Good luck and best wishes!