Well, another day down. Spent 7 hours in moving vehicle with boyfriend who has ADHD and he was acting like Porky Pig on drugs to put it nicely, very stressful at times. I try to look at being with him as an adventure most days but I think long road trips with him may not be a good idea. Needless to say, I had plenty of times I wanted to eat but didn't but I did notice without the eating to distract myself with, I'm less patient and just wanted to cry. I wonder how our food and our emotions can be so intertwined when food is to fuel us so we can live? But yet food can have so much power?
I made it thru yesterday without binging and ruining what I have done so far, also had a couple of beers last night (had to!) without totally going bonkers, where in the past I definitely have when consuming alcohol. I am rather proud of myself and am committed to losing weight and to having better relationship with self and with significant other. I just keep telling myself 10 lbs by my birthday (nov 9th) and it seems like a goal I can achieve. Also, didn't get activity in yesterday, which I really missed. I definitely will today. I notice if I don't exercise, I tend to get stir crazy, and consider it my "me" time.
Well, 5 days down without binge eating so I have to congratulate myself on that, tell myself to take a deep breath, to take one day at a time and that, yes, it will be okay.