Hi everyone! My name is Rachel, I'm 23 years old. I graduated from university at Christmas and am now working for a local government agency where I sit for 8 hours a day and I'm worried that this is going to tip me further up the scale. I weigh upwards of 330 pounds and I just don't know how to get it off.
I made an SP account last year while I was living in the South Pacific and after I moved home I stopped using it because I didn't feel like it was going to help me. I'm not very good at the whole "moral support" thing because I have always felt like it wouldn't help, that I'd just get aggravated or annoyed, and that I would feel even worse about myself than I already do. But all professional weight loss journals I've read have suggested joining a support group, so I guess that's why I'm here. I don't really know what else to say other than I don't know where to start.
I played sports all my life before I went to college, and looking back at old pictures from grade school I realize that I wasn't as big as I thought I was, that I was just a lot taller and broader than the rest of my friends (I'm 6'0"). Sports helped me keep up my fitness levels even though I was bigger. When I went to college I stopped playing sports and piled the weight on. I prided myself on my fitness abilities when I was a teenager... that I could keep up with all my skinny fit friends on the court and on the field. I think I'm still in the mindset that I can keep up, but the reality is that I can't. I can hardly do half of what I used to be able to do and even that winds me. I want to be fit again but I can hardly run anymore, and I'm so embarrassed at the gym that I buy memberships intending to workout "all the time!" and "finally get the weight off!" and "I'm gonna get healthy!" and after a week I get so embarrassed that I can't do what I should be able to do as a 23 year old that I stop going.
Any words of wisdom for overcoming any of these issues would be really great!