Jenna, you took a very courageous step by posting your story.
Recovering from an eating disorder is not an easy thing. Are you working with your doctor or a good therapist who treats people with eating disorders ? If not, don't be afraid to ask for help. a good therapist can help you work through your issues.
Have you joined any of the Spark Teams for members recovering from eating disorders ? If not, you might want to do that. It's always good to have a support system and you may find talking with other people who've recovered from bulimia helpful.
You have to start telling yourself that you can and will become a healthier person. As the old song goes,"accentuate the positive and eliminate the negative". Start giving yourself credit for the healthy things you do for yourself during the day and try not to beat on yourself if you have some negatives. We all have negatives. The goal in life is to have the positives outnumber the negatives.