idk, if i'm tired. but i didnt comprehend any of that.
is it a joke or an message to everyone? i'm so lost.
JUANEEZY 11/1/07 9:50 P
ok umm... I think you should tell your friends or a family member or someone on this website if your on the computer alot to check your messages cuz you said that you tell your friends and they say your fine and you tell your mom and there's no support there so ask someone who's willing to help you out tell your friend that your trying to lose weight and you are going to need the occasional phone call to motivate you tell your mom that you really need her to support you or another family member because seriously your friends and emails from whoever are incredibly nice and sweet and they do help but they're not there at your house telling you not to reach for the double-stuffed oreos. you know? even if your family isnt there emotionally ask them to stop with the fat food and if they need fast food b/c of time go to subway they'll have a sub in 5 minutes. Excuses come in truckloads I mean we all have some and everyone will always have them but seriously if you look at it the people who are fit and do have their life together don't have their life like that b/c they don't have excuses or b/c their life is any easier b/c everyone has problems the only difference is that they make conscious decisions that if they wanna be healthy there are sacrifices to be made and you seriously need to stop and think and ask yourself is having that cookie for 30 seconds worth a lifetime of being unhappy with your body and i no that was bad cuz an oreo doesnt make you gain 50 lbs. but it's little stuff like that like dropping the coke and eating a healthy breakfast some special k, a fruit and orange juice idk and when you go to the 7/11 wanting to buy a snickers reach for the granola bar instead nature valley is really good and instead of hotchips get the sunchips its every small little thing oh and yea please EAT!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE seriously you have to eat when i was trying to lose weight back in eighth grade, im a junior now,i would eat like an apple in the morning with like a glass of water and when I got back from school I would eat something like a piece of chicken and some white rice it was "poop". I lost alot of weight fast but I would get crazy migraines when i would stand up everything would turn black and i managed to lose 70 lbs. and I would look in the mirror and I would see fat disgusting fat and now i look at pictures from back when i had lost all the weight and i was the skinniest i had ever been and in pictures my skin was sooo gross it was all stretchy and it looked sick like wearing jeans that have that lump on the bottom of the butt part and it sags cuz they dont fit right and it's cuz i lost so much weight so fast and I would never work out to tighten the skin that it just sagged it was sick looking back it's like I had anorexia or something and I didn't even know it. It's sad and oh hahahaha after a few months I couldn't keep it up and i went back to my old habits of eating alot and over the course of one year i gained the 80 lbs. hahahah so it was all for nothing and now im sort of in the middle im still considered overweight for my height but i don't care what the BMI charts say cuz im happy with the way my body looks and that is huge for me and when you set your goal please dont set the wrong one b/c one of the problems that I had was that my goal was to look skinny or get skinnier and once i did my goal was met and so i stopped and gained it all back this was a different time though you have no idea how many crazy weight changes i've gone through. and now my goal isn't to get skinny its to be healthy, it's all about being comfortable with yourself ok im done i'm srry i rote so much but i wanted to share my experience so you knew that I could relate I know what your going through so my advice to you is to get some motivational positive support b/c not only will those people help you reach your goal but it WILL boost yourself esteem b/c it really is a beautiful thing to know that others are willing to dedicate their time to you and that your loved that much awww moment hahaha well anyway take care of yourself and dont forget to look at people in the eyes and smile lmao
