Will Power: Find Your Inner Cause

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6/10/2011 5:07 AM   :  91 comments   :  12,196 Views

By Beth Donovan (~INDYGIRL)

I honestly have very little will power and Iíll be the first to admit it. So, how did I lose 150 pounds and counting? How did I make it through a whole year of a plateau after losing 100 pounds? How do I get myself to the gym when I want to lie in bed under a heating pad and take medicine? I really had to dig to answer these questions.

My ah-ha moment was when I wanted some motivation. I was lying in bed on my lap top and looking for a picture of someone so fat they couldn't walk. Then it dawned on me that I was that person. My BFF was also getting out, shopping and going places and I was just lying in my room waiting to die. I wanted a life again. I wanted to shop with her, get mani-pedis, have a job again and feel like part of the world around me. It was definitely enough to get me started on my journey. I donít know if this alone would have carried me through as far as Iíve come, however.

When I want to re-motivate myself, this is going to sound trite, but I just come here to SparkPeople and try to motivate others. It helps me remember why I'm doing what I'm doing. Also, I was never very successful at weight loss before nor did I have many supportive friends. Here I have both. The support is amazing. Nobody judges me for my size, they like me as is. If I need friends to pick me up, you are all here. I hope to always be there for you too.

I persevere because I want to motivate you. Really. At the gym, I kept pushing because I wanted so badly to come to SparkPeople and tell you I broke my personal best by 900 steps on the recumbent stepper. I did 2,500! Because it is a recumbent stepper, you don't have to stand, so it's great for people with mobility issues. I do it to prove you can do it by starting out with small achievable goals and beating your own personal bests. Thatís what I do.

Believe it or not, when they asked me to speak at the 2009 convention, I was floored! I had lost 100 pounds, but was the biggest person there at 360 pounds. I was worried about what people would think of me, not being thin like the rest. They really cheered me on! I prayed before the convention that if there was a way to make all of my suffering as a 460 pound disabled person with all of the chronic illnesses I have worth while... God would find a way to get the message of how to not be so unhealthy or let hopelessness take over your fitness dreams out there.

Mow Iím blogging, leading teams, and rallies all for the love of SparkPeople. Iím trying to show you all that it is REAL and it CAN be done by ANYONE. I am nobody special with amazing powers or a fast metabolism. I donít have the secret, but if I did, I would tell you all right now. I am simply someone who has found what works for me. Iíve learned that each fitness journey is different and you take what works for you and leave the rest.

What really works for me is YOU. I want so badly to see you all succeed and make your dreams come true. I want to write to inspire you, workout to show you it can be done, and think of creative ways you can do what you say you canít. I really don't have any willpower. I guess I have a cause instead. Maybe that's the secret, to find your inner cause.

What are you passionate about?



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  • 91
    I saved this one to my favorites a while ago and just came across it again today.

    It's still motivating and apples eve more today for me.

    Thanks, Again....

    Johnny - 1/13/2013   12:14:25 PM
  • 90
    You made me cry...that's good. I don't have nearly the journey you do. I had only 50lbs to lose and I whine about it taking too long although I've lost16 pounds in 6 weeks. In 3 months I will have met my goal weight. I applaud you for sticking with it and motivating the rest of us whiners ( and I mean that in the nicest way...come on, you know who you are) HeeHee - 1/6/2012   3:44:17 PM
  • LZYDAISY232
    89
    I love all your blogs. Your story truly ispires me each and every day! - 6/20/2011   1:05:49 PM
  • WTOLAN
    88
    I never knew there were so many supporting members on weight loss til I came here and it amazes me how so many people are out there now getting fit. I am motivated through just reading your blog and well putting one fit out in front of the other. My roomate has always said to me it is always about just putting one fit in front of the other and now I see what he means about that. Thank you for your words of support to keep me up and moving. - 6/18/2011   11:51:01 AM
  • 87
    What an inspiring blog. Those of us who need you are so thankful! - 6/15/2011   4:34:14 PM
  • 86
    Beth, Thank you. I'm struggling today to find any shred of motivation or energy. After reading your blog, I can feel a tiny pin-prick of motivation growing inside. Guess that's what they call the "spark"! :) Thank you! - 6/15/2011   3:31:57 PM
  • 85
    Thanks! I needed to hear this! Now I have to stop bawling and get back to work. - 6/15/2011   9:02:20 AM
  • JIMMIESOPH
    84
    You said exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you. - 6/14/2011   9:40:11 PM
  • 83
    I cried reading this blog because I could relate so much to the paragraph about wanting so much to live your life again. I miss being passionate about living life and having experiences, feeling good about myself, feeling healthy, and actually being able to get out of the house. I'm SO SO SO happy for you and your success and I'm glad your getting your life back. Maybe you can bemy motivation and I can get my life back! - 6/14/2011   2:27:19 PM
  • 82
    I am passionate about helping those who are hurting, for any reason. Your motivation to others definitely does that! - 6/14/2011   11:53:50 AM
  • 81
    Wow thank you, your story gives weight loss a whole different meaning and one I can relate to - thanks, I'll never look at it the same way again - 6/14/2011   8:36:48 AM
  • 80
    Truly inspiring! Thank you for the amazing words of motivation! - 6/13/2011   11:42:00 PM
  • 79
    There, you just motivated me! I have bounced around with 10 lbs. I gained after being laid up with broken bone in foot. I get down 3 lbs., go back up, and just can't succeed. But if you fought a 1 year plateau, so can I. I won't give up!!! Thanks, Beth! - 6/13/2011   11:11:16 PM
  • 78
    You are an inspiration to me and generally bring tears to my eyes with the truths that I sometimes want to hide. - 6/13/2011   2:50:30 PM
  • 77
    Great story and way to go!!!!!!!!!!!! - 6/13/2011   1:41:04 PM
  • MKWEBER517
    76
    Had to respond to this b/c I have just recently FOUND my motivation - ABC's Extreme Makeover Weight Loss edition on Monday nights!

    IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN THIS SHOW - YOU HAVE GOT TO GO WATCH THE LAST TWO EPISODES!

    It's so well done, Chris Powell the host is a breath of fresh air on weight loss shows. He is amazingly nice and sincere and focuses on helping people overcome what they're struggling with psychologically and attack the real root of their problems.

    I am so inspired by the people on this show. Especially the firs episode - Rachel. I can't help but empathize with her as I too have always been an over achiever but feel like such a failure. In recent years that struggle has really developed into issues with my weight, and I gained almost 77 pounds in my 20's. For the most part I have dropped the weight with good old diet and exercise, but it definitely is an up and down struggle.

    I'm so happy for Rachel and all the cast members of Extreme Makeover Weight Loss. I'm hoping she can keep it off. She is DEFINITELY my motivation!!

    If you haven't yet - watch the show! It will inspire you to get up and move! - 6/13/2011   12:57:00 PM
  • 75
    Good for you!!! You ARE a motivation to all of us out here, and I understand where you are coming from! I like to motivate those "seasoned" adults who have weight to lose...my attitude all along is that "if I can do this, anyone can" - I guess I am passionate about that!!!! - 6/13/2011   11:59:08 AM
  • ONMYWEIGH2011
    74
    THANK YOU! - 6/13/2011   11:08:26 AM
  • 73
    Beth, count me amongst the members who think you're a treasure !!!

    What am I passionate about ?? I'm passionate about teaching a great fitness class. 8 years ago, if Mr Peabody and Sherman had traveled in the Way Back Machine and told me I'd be a group exercise instructor, I'd have laughed at them ! Encountering Mr Peabody and Sherman is an issue for another blog ! LOL !!! Stranger things have happened.

    I love teaching class and I really love it when my students not only get a good workout, but enjoy themselves too. that tells me I'm doing something right.
    - 6/13/2011   11:06:19 AM
  • 72
    Thanks from the bottom of my heart, you are a GREAT inspiration. - 6/13/2011   11:01:50 AM
  • 71
    Thank you for sharing part of your story with us! It really touched my heart and reminded me not to give up! I was taught throught a 12 step program that to keep what we learn we need to give it away! Thanks for showing us that it is working for you! I hope you have a blessed day!
    ~ Jenn - 6/13/2011   10:11:24 AM
  • ALBERTACB
    70
    Thank You!

    You have succeeded in your mission: you've just motivated me more than anything else I've seen!

    I wish you MUCH continued sucess!
    - 6/13/2011   9:20:52 AM
  • 1BEACHWALKER
    69
    You are an inspiration! Keep going-never give up! You can do it! Thank you for such a wonderful blog! - 6/12/2011   10:55:18 PM
  • 68
    You made my day... here I am feeling sorry for myself because I've had one bad day... this is the point at which I go on a binge and give up... and your blog saved me... thanks!! - 6/12/2011   8:29:27 PM
  • 67
    You inspire all of us!! Thank you! - 6/12/2011   5:26:34 PM
  • FLAMEWORKER77
    66
    Inspirational. I needed a motivational boost today and you certainly provided it. Way to go. - 6/12/2011   4:12:31 PM
  • 65
    You are a treasure! - 6/12/2011   3:08:14 PM
  • 64
    You definitely motivate me -- because you've lost the weight, yes, but more because you care so much. I love all your articles. You are amazing!
    - 6/12/2011   2:33:40 PM
  • 63
    And you truly are SUCH an inspiration. I've repeated your story so many times to people who tell me they "can't" exercise because they have bad knees, bad hips, arthritis, heart disease, cancer, etc. etc. You are proof that there is always SOMEthing a person can do to exercise and improve his/her health. Your persistence will see you through to meeting every goal along your way! - 6/12/2011   2:03:08 PM
  • SHEILA-45
    62
    Thx for sharing. You're right about finding what works best for you because one size does NOT fit all. I hope to attend a conference one day and hear you speak; you are an inspiration. - 6/12/2011   1:36:45 PM
  • 61
    I love what you said about finding what works for you. I've been improving my health and my weight for two years, and have only lost 50+ pounds. I've had lots of plateaus until I realized I needed to make another change.
    Last month, I starting giving myself a challenge for 10 days at a time with a reward at the end. And I lost 10 pounds in May! I get lots of inspiration from you, and from Spark People in general. I'm sharing my success with my friends and family and keep showing them what a great resource Spark People is.
    Thanks, and keep up your good work at inspiring us so we can motivate you. Its a great circle of progress! - 6/12/2011   12:40:23 PM
  • MINDELA62
    60
    You are an inspiration to us all--not just in terms of your weight loss, but because of your persistance and dedication to health, your own and all of ours. Wishing you all the best success! - 6/12/2011   12:27:45 PM
  • 59
    I am inspired by your weight loss. I hope in the next year and a half to lose 150 pounds. Right now it is slow going. I am trying really hard to battle bad eating habits and make more healthier choices. You are amazing. Thank you for putting your words out there for all of us to enjoy and to inspire. - 6/12/2011   10:47:08 AM
  • 58
    Thanks for your inspiration! It was a timely reminder to me to stay the course and keep on trucking! Congratulation on your journey and happy trails as you continue, not only on your weight lost but also your blogs to encourage others. - 6/12/2011   9:26:33 AM
  • 57
    Thanks for sharing - I wish you the best of luck in reaching your goals. I hope to find your motivation and get back on the losing track!! - 6/12/2011   8:00:22 AM
  • LAS_KARINAS
    56
    Congrats on the 150... Thanks for the inspiration... Right now for me is really hard to find will power.... Now I'm going to apply will power to my life because I know I can do it.. - 6/12/2011   3:50:20 AM
  • 55
    WOW! What an inspiration. Thanks for sharing. Will Power is something we all battle with. I commend you. Keep up the good work. You are doing an amazing job! - 6/12/2011   3:24:21 AM
  • 54
    You definitely belong blogging...you do it so well!! Thanks for the boost-talk! It's good to be reminded of what can be done! - 6/11/2011   11:11:44 PM
  • 53
    Awesome words. Thank you and please keep writing. I am glad you found your passion and cause. - 6/11/2011   10:45:44 PM
  • BOSHAD
    52
    KEEP SHARING. Keep reminding me that there will be ups and downs, success and failures. The solution is remembering where you came from, forgiving yourself for slipping up and get back on track. Right?

    I ask myself: How did I let myself go this far? Why didn't I stop and get control before I destroyed the life I had? Guess it had to take a total shut down and waking up to find myself on a ventilator at age 58. The last time I was in a hospital I was 5 and getting my tonsils out. I am just starting the journey back and I am encouraged by the blogs and emails. I can't believe there are so many people who are 100+ overweight. I look at them and see the physical activity they can do and think if only I could ride a bike, take a hike, and go somewhere without fear. Then I say --- why not? - 6/11/2011   4:50:03 PM
  • GIRLIEMM74
    51
    At the end of your blog, you asked what the reader is passionate about. That got me thinking....what AM I passionate about? I am passionate about my son, my job, and my friends. That should be enough of a motivator. But, as luck would have it, I have an amazing friend who challenged me to lose weight. She even offered to reward me at -50 lbs. with my first tatoo. That may sound silly to some, but it is perfect for me. I have started and I plan on surpassing that first goal! - 6/11/2011   3:04:59 PM
  • 50
    Thank you so much, You are so inspiring. Just reading your motivating articles keeps me in touch with who I am and what my needs are. You are such an amazing success. Love you. - 6/11/2011   3:02:29 PM
  • 49
    Thanks so much for being an inspiration to me as well as countless others! Keep up the good work. - 6/11/2011   2:50:52 PM
  • 48
    "I am simply someone who has found what works for me. Iíve learned that each fitness journey is different and you take what works for you and leave the rest."

    I think you summed it up perfectly right here. - 6/11/2011   2:18:39 PM
  • LINDAS813
    47
    Your amazing!!!! just knowing that there are woman out there like you helps me to keep my chin up and to keep moving!!! Thanks so much for helping me stay motivated - 6/11/2011   1:18:58 PM
  • 46
    Loved your blog, I'm passionate about life...most times. My light bulb moment was when I went to Cuba, and I was fatter than my friends, and we were all overweight. We made a plan to lose weight, and I lost 24 lbs. and still have a bit more to go. I have gained some back, so I have a bit more, than a bit, about 15 lbs. - 6/11/2011   1:14:20 PM
  • 45
    Loved your blog, I'm passionate about life...most times. My light bulb moment was when I went to Cuba, and I was fatter than my friends, and we were all overweight. We made a plan to lose weight, and I lost 24 lbs. and still have a bit more to go. I have gained some back, so I have a bit more, than a bit, about 15 lbs. - 6/11/2011   1:14:20 PM
  • 44
    Loved your blog, I'm passionate about life...most times. My light bulb moment was when I went to Cuba, and I was fatter than my friends, and we were all overweight. We made a plan to lose weight, and I lost 24 lbs. and still have a bit more to go. I have gained some back, so I have a bit more, than a bit, about 15 lbs. - 6/11/2011   1:14:19 PM
  • 43
    Loved your blog, I'm passionate about life...most times. My light bulb moment was when I went to Cuba, and I was fatter than my friends, and we were all overweight. We made a plan to lose weight, and I lost 24 lbs. and still have a bit more to go. I have gained some back, so I have a bit more, than a bit, about 15 lbs. - 6/11/2011   1:13:29 PM
  • 42
    Loved your blog, I'm passionate about life...most times. My light bulb moment was when I went to Cuba, and I was fatter than my friends, and we were all overweight. We made a plan to lose weight, and I lost 24 lbs. and still have a bit more to go. I have gained some back, so I have a bit more, than a bit, about 15 lbs. - 6/11/2011   1:13:29 PM

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