I'm Almost To Goal, So Now What?

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By: , SparkPeople Blogger
7/22/2011 2:00 PM   :  703 comments   :  22,941 Views

I know there is a part of me dreading reaching my goal, because then what?  I’ve been a dieter and the funny, creative fat girl all of my life.  I don’t know how to be anybody else.  It’s a good thing, in that particular case, that I have a lot of weight to lose.  It gives my mind time to adjust. That’s such a change from my days of “I want it NOW!”  
 
Maybe that’s why I never lost the weight before.  Perhaps the speed I was losing at did not give my mind time to adjust to the new me.  Heck yes, I enjoyed the compliments, clothes, and feeling smaller.  In my head though, I was still the same fat person with low self-esteem.  I was fighting the same emotional battles the same way--with food.  I was still totally obsessed with what I was eating, wasn’t eating, or was going to eat in a given day.  
 
This time around, I’m making small lifestyle changes and it has taken me since December 2005 to lose 150 pounds and counting.  I don’t have that panicky fear that the weight is going to come back this time.  I know it isn’t because I am a different person now.  I’m still the funny, creative fat girl, but someday I’ll be the funny, creative girl.  This slower weight loss has allowed me time to adjust and learn to cope, while reinventing myself.  
 
My old self was a fairly healthy eater, but she ate too much of whatever it was at hand.  Portion control, binge eating, and emotional eating are my skeletons in the closet.  If I hear the rattle now, I head for the healthiest fare and eat a proper portion fast.  Catching hunger before it gets a grab onto you is key.  (These are 15 of my favorite hunger-fighting foods.) My old self also hated to move or work out.  Now I am marveling at anything my body can do after having been bed ridden for several years due to chronic illness and pain.    
 
The SparkPeople Community really holds me together when I’m going to lose control of my healthy lifestyle.  I come to SparkPeople, where everything is beautiful and accepting, after hard days or during rough bouts.  Having people cheer you on is the best feeling.  When bills are due, work is tough, you need to work out, you’re hungry, your family or friends are being less than supportive, you can log into a whole world of support and ideas to deal with your problems without food.  
 
Little changes are my main strategy in weight loss.  I don’t jump head long into anything, unless it’s a refreshing pool of water.  If I do I lose my enthusiasm in a blaze of glory and end up on the floor crying “Why did I fail again?  I’ll never succeed!”  I now do things like order small, eat from small plates, drink water, have more fruits and veggies, whole grains, and lean proteins.  I eat less processed junk.  I still have some, but less.  (How I keep going when the road is long: My "Indyisms.")
 
So, yes I know how to live this lifestyle now and I love it.  Doors are opening into a new world with each pound lost and each new skill I achieve.  Each skill is obtained by moving a little more each day.   Last year my big thing was that I wanted to do tree pose in yoga and I did it!  This year I managed several others, including downward dog.     
 
With a new world opening up and new super powers, what’s a girl to do?  Set new goals of course!  I no longer plan to settle for my goal of 250.  I plan to celebrate like mad and then set my next goal.  I want to believe I can get under 200.  I’m not there yet, but when I reach 200, I’ll let you know what my new goal is then.  
 
Please allow me to share some photos with you of how far I’ve come:  The main photo is me last month, 150 pounds lost! This was me then.


 
 Editor's note: Congratulations, Beth! We're all so proud of you. Please leave a note of congratulations for Beth below. :)
 
 


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Comments

  • 703
    You have an amazing and inspiring story. Congrats on all your efforts... They are paying off is so many wonderful ways for you. Keep it up! - 11/18/2011   12:47:56 PM
  • 702
    thanks for sharing. I am almost to goal and get sooo scared i may gain it back. hearing from others helps so much - 9/3/2011   11:22:55 AM
  • LISAZIG
    701
    Beth you are my inspiration....I look forward to your blogs. I am so pround of you and am happy for you ...You give all of us hope!! - 8/30/2011   11:25:34 AM
  • 700
    Way to go!!!! - 8/27/2011   10:12:24 PM
  • 699
    That is a great blog, thank you so much, you are an inspiration!
    And congratulations :-) - 8/27/2011   4:36:32 PM
  • 698
    Congrats you look amazing! You will rock goal! - 8/20/2011   12:53:21 PM
  • 697
    Wow absolutely awesome! I know what you mean about going slower seems to give me enough time to get used to the differences. Good luck going forward! - 8/19/2011   3:34:24 PM
  • 696
    The sky is the limit, Beth, you are doing a fabulous job and have the life long attitude that we all need!! - 8/6/2011   7:35:37 AM
  • GRANDMA423
    695
    Slow and steady wins the race, and you are a winning inspiration.
    - 8/5/2011   2:00:40 PM
  • GDEVLIN
    694
    Beth what an amazing journey. Thanks for sharing1 - 8/4/2011   8:51:12 PM
  • JOANNA710
    693
    Congratulations!! You are indeed a true inspiration. Thank you for sharing. - 8/4/2011   6:57:28 PM
  • E-EDWARDS
    692
    Wow! Congrats Beth. - 8/3/2011   11:37:41 AM
  • PARTHOSWIFE79
    691
    Way to go!! You're story inspires me to want to get going and lose my weight!! Congrats on the goals you've made!! - 8/3/2011   8:55:42 AM
  • 690
    Excellent work! Well done! - 8/2/2011   9:31:08 PM
  • 689
    Congratulations, you look great! - 8/2/2011   3:52:19 PM
  • JANI-LOU
    688
    Oh, you look wonderful but I bet you feel even better. :-) I'm coming up to my three-year anniversary with SparkPeople in December. I'm still not to goal weight, but one day I will get there and from that day on, I will continue to stay there, give or take a pound or two, or three. Great inspiration! Keep it up! - 8/2/2011   10:35:34 AM
  • 687
    Congratulations!!! You accomplished your goal!!! - 8/2/2011   9:54:00 AM
  • COOLBREEZE19
    686
    That's fantastic! What a great inspiration to everyone! - 8/2/2011   9:19:55 AM
  • TOPAZROSE
    685
    Beth you are an inspiration. Congratulations! - 8/2/2011   3:22:16 AM
  • 684
    Congratulations Beth!!! Well-deserved! - 8/1/2011   10:36:53 PM
  • 683
    Beth, You are wonderful. You have shown me this can be done if I keep working it. Slow and steady. If I expect to lose 100 pounds in less time that it took to put it on, I am not thinking straight. Thanks for your wonderful blog and congrats. You are an inspiration.
    Hugs,
    Hope - 8/1/2011   3:16:21 PM
  • DESTINEDTOBFIT
    682
    Idk if you ever get around to reading my notes with all of the comments you get on all of your blogs, but you consistently amaze me and remind me that this can be done. Congrats and I look forward to reading many many more of your blogs! - 8/1/2011   2:26:11 PM
  • 681
    Congratulations! You look so happy & healthy -- keep it up! - 8/1/2011   11:58:53 AM
  • 680
    You look wonderful! Congratulations on your weight loss. I find your blogs very inspiring. Thank you for sharing! - 8/1/2011   11:06:55 AM
  • 679
    Beth, I have admired your BLOGS, Inspiration, and "New Healthy Attitude!" You have come a very long way, but knowing that you can, have done, and are willing to go the extra "miles" to complete your journey, has helped us all. And I agree with you totally, logging on to SparkPeople, has given each and everyone of us a "new Outlook" on what CAN BE ACCOMPLISHED! Thank you for sharing.
    Your SPF,
    Fran - 8/1/2011   10:42:11 AM
  • 678
    I think you will find that keeping your goal weight to what it is will be plenty of work. You look fabulous. I am so proud of you! - 8/1/2011   10:33:02 AM
  • GRAMPIAN
    677
    Brilliant, Beth - congratulations! - 8/1/2011   5:57:19 AM
  • 676
    Congratulations Beth! What an inspiration! I'm trying to get to "onederland" myself. I have 11 pounds to go. I will think of you when I am pushing myself to workout harder and longer. - 7/31/2011   5:48:47 PM
  • 675
    congrats on your success,Beth! - 7/31/2011   3:41:10 PM
  • 674
    Beth, thanks for your inspiring blogs. When I am struggling I read your blogs and the encourage me. - 7/31/2011   12:22:07 PM
  • 673
    I applaud your sucess! I, like you, plan to reach a goal and then set a new goal until I get to a healthy weight. You are an inspiration! - 7/30/2011   9:18:08 PM
  • BEBE_COURAGOUS
    672
    You inspire me to fight the good fight ! I keep having doubts of my personal success but with your blog, I feel more motivated! Thanks and Congrats! I wish you the best of luck and look forward to seeing your achievements! - 7/30/2011   6:53:55 PM
  • MAILKARENNOW
    671
    the real winners always get there..... - 7/30/2011   1:29:39 PM
  • 670
    congrats on your success! - 7/30/2011   12:00:22 PM
  • 669
    Awesome story. Congratulations on the weight loss and lifestyle change :) - 7/30/2011   10:44:38 AM
  • CYNNANE
    668
    Wow, you are amazing! Congrats! - 7/30/2011   9:53:23 AM
  • BSWEET101
    667
    Congratulations, and thanks for the inspiration! - 7/30/2011   2:54:25 AM
  • NIMI1234
    666
    Congratulations, Beth!! You have done an amazing job. - 7/30/2011   12:25:06 AM
  • 665
    Totally and completely awesome! - 7/29/2011   11:38:59 PM
  • BUBBLEBEAR
    664
    AMAZING WOMAN!!!! YOU GO GIRL!!!!!!! - 7/29/2011   6:06:42 PM
  • 663
    Congrats! - 7/29/2011   5:15:23 PM
  • LADYBEASTMODE5
    662
    You look awesome! Congrats!!! - 7/29/2011   1:43:39 PM
  • 661
    Congrats, Beth. You are amazing!!!!!! - 7/29/2011   1:27:19 PM
  • CONTESSA75
    660
    Beth, Thank you so much for sharing your story...you are such a beautiful person. It was inspiring to read your words! - 7/29/2011   12:45:43 PM
  • TURNING49
    659
    I am only just getting started, but you have given me such inspiration, thank you. - 7/29/2011   11:11:13 AM
  • LORILORI9
    658
    Great job! Keep enjoying your journey! You definitely inspire me! - 7/29/2011   6:50:16 AM
  • 657
    Beth my dear friend, I am beyond proud of you and hope you know how truly special you are. Thank you for sharing this journey with us all! You give us all hope! - 7/28/2011   11:36:12 PM
  • LIGHT512
    656
    Way To Go :-) - 7/28/2011   9:28:43 PM
  • MARYLOUGO
    655
    That's Awesome, it's such an encouragement to me. I've lost weight over the years too, and I'm on my last 30 lbs! It's a strange world that I can dream when a dream of being 140 lbs is 35lbs away then reality. I never was, my last goal was like yours, to be less then 200lbs. If I can do it so can you!!! Be encouraged Beth- we'll both get there! :-) - 7/28/2011   6:15:58 PM
  • MRS_KAISER
    654
    awesome awesome awsome!!!!!! this made me tear up a little! it also brought a smile to my face =D - 7/28/2011   5:14:38 PM

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